Is it there a right time when things should come down and kick you in the balls like they used to do, no wonder why sometimes they just don't work the way supposed to. I guess there is no right time for anything, should I just put it on the sign of mistakes, that in the past 3 months I thought I found the right one every time I turned my head around and got a better view than yesterday. It was just my mind cheating on me, like my own heart used to do it, still tries to but I am working on it. Now just my mind keeps me busy at night and sometimes two hours are not enough for all the thoughts to pass through my mind and to review all my life from the mistakes point of view.
Always thought that this is what I want to be, well now I am talking about myself the one I've been in the past 3 months when I was falling for every opportunity I came across to. Sweet, gotta say it was good, got some of it, some new and some just played with me but I wanted to believe that I had played with, ha funny me, loser me.
Look is just another day and many to come and who knows how many thoughts, till now some shots and a pack of cigarettes succeeded where I used to fail. Good job but come on, how long I can continue with this shit coming and going on. When am I gonna feel like me and feel good with what I pulled of by now and do not depend on walking opportunities that look good under the candle light and with their part wardrobe on my bedroom floor? Guess I will not answer this question and maybe I should not ask others either because I have no answers and dunno where to look for.
Get together to take part of my show where I can sing drunk and put up a lame strip show where people can laugh and leave some pity dollar bills at the door when they exit before the show ends.
Have fun, I still got it.
